dagger-lub

2008-12-08T01:48:00.000-08:00

erm. the last post got a little boring.

dunno why my gala photo fail to be post. hahax.

this few weeks very busy with all the projects.

first is the CATs assignment, then follow by UID.

UID is the killer. as really dunno what Connie want.

stay back for 1 week to finish all the things that she want.

even stay till school close and we got chase off. hahax.

but thats not the end of UID yet, more things need to do during the holidays.

yesterday just hand in BIS.

another killer. as really dunno how to write the report.

but Mr Zippy allow the 7 girls to grp together. LoL.

7 in a grp. is a very big grp.

tmr will start my common test then will have 3 weeks break.

hope that this 3 weeks will be able to catch some movies.

miss my movies. very long never watch movie lerx.

last tues i went for staff meeting, cathay is on tight budget so all hours will be cut.

rather sad when hear this as really need $$$. but nothin can be done,

must be fair to everyone.

will try to hunt fer new job. but want somethin so flexible as cathay...

hmm. hope can find.

will end here. need to continue study.

will blog asap.

buaii.

2008-11-25T22:20:00.000-08:00

once again. very long never come blogging lerx. hahax
very busy, no time to blog.
some updates ...

everything was fine after school re-open. but once again, my holidays coming again !!!
very happy of having all my classmates.
is a fun class that i will remember forever and ever.
although is the first year, but it seems like we have know each other for a long time.
new modules is not very fun, get Connie for my UID, the moudle i thought is fun but somehow becuz of her, everythin goes wrong. however overall is okay.
new website to design is about camping. what a boring topic to do on.

another module is CATs, rather fun module. is about creative thinking.
yesterday jux finish my first presentation of CATs. erm. still okay.
we had a skit for the presentation.
have alphosus be mummy, li yun as grandma n gladys is the daughter of the family.
as for miie n gina is the nagrator.

BIS module kill miie. although is abt business, but e lecture make miie shut down whenever he start talking. this module is like jux read you will know. the textbook is far better then the ppt slides.

OOP another programming module that i have. erm kinda lost, but i'll try my best to achive the best.

NF abt network, LOST !!! LoL ... no choice. i really dunno what lecture is sayin. hahax.

S&W I join the wellness, every tues will go wellness then wed die in class too tiring.

btw, join a CCA thats Hi-club. is abt sign language. why join? no reason, jux wanna try something new !!!

thats abt school...

abt job...
have a GALA few weeks ago,
is like for so long we didn have a GALA.
the GALA is Madagascar 2.
the other one is Quatum of Solace, i didnt help at the GALA as class over is already 6.30 hence didn help them out at the GALA.

2008-09-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

给自己的信。。。

这是一封我想写给自己的信。

是我不了解自己吗？
还是自己最近变了？
我开始越来越不像自己。

有很多的是不是我想要想太多，
是自己的一种感觉。

或许我还没长大吧。
有太多的事情我会在事情发生之后才想到后果
还是有的时候我把事情想得太简单？

我很要求自己，
明明知道这样会很辛苦，又何必跟自己过不去呢？
要求自己是想让自己跟进步，
只要可以我就希望可以作到100分，
可是事情往往都没有那么顺利，
我越想做好错得越多。

我好累好累，
100分的女儿我做不到，
100分的朋友我也不是，
100分的女朋友我更不是，
连最简单的100分的员工我也不是。

我只想让自己跟进步，
我错了吗？

我承认我没外表坚强，
可是又有谁知道呢？
我也好像像个孩子抱着爸爸妈妈大哭一场，
可是这样只会让他们担心。。。
好像痛痛快快地大哭一场！！！

到底有谁了解我？

2008-09-05T08:58:00.000-07:00

sorry people.

hahax very long never come update lerx.
super busy now days,
none of e day i will just stay at home doing nothin.

rather bad mood now,
dun know i should say people out there dun understand miie
or should say i dun understand myself.
LoL.
kinda sound funny, but thats what i feel.

jux a few things update my friends out there that never
see miie for 'years' what i'm doin now days.

erm say somethin sad first,
weeks ago somethin happen and let miie think alot.
that is one of my friend mother pass away,
and she is the onli child and can say that she dun have a father,
as her father left them when she was very young.
it make miie realise that life is so unpredictable
anythin might jux happen n u will lost your love one.
like my friend, she never know that e time she punch
out from cathay is e time that her mother left this world.
a number of us went to e wake n funeral.
what i can say is that she is very strong...
really... stay strong my dear friend, we will be with you always...

2 days back i went clubbing with cathay friends.
went to MOS, it is a super lkong story.
i quarrel with phyllis also because of this.
not that she dun let miie go, but.. haix~ nvm...
have fun there, but never stay long as she is tired and second day gota go school.
who went? see below:
Hubert
Kristine
Michelle
Yu Ying
Hui Ting
Gladys
Albee

hmm... now is havin school holiday, but will end in 1mth time.. hahax...
miss my classmates...
will be havin class gathering, but i can't go.
SOrry !!!

Wanna go watch movie, but simply no time... will find time next week... hahax...
lots of movie waitin fer miie...
but first show i wanna watch now is Boys Over Flower !!!
Jux so nice that everytime go check hall i dun wanna come out...
Opps... Heex...

Signnin Off,
[V]iki wif Love
o5 Sep 2oO8

2008-06-23T19:09:00.000-07:00

hihi
super long never come blog lerx...
hahax.
poly first holiday has jux ended.
2 weeks seems to b long but not really.
went back to mango n work fer that 2 weeks fer sales,
super busy. u can see how scary singaporeans is !!!
got to know a few new friends there.
very fun workin wif them.
so funny.
we everyday talk crape.
hahax.
especially wif jasmine.
feel that she little crazy.
then wif racheal n seet leei n ting li we 5 start 2gether.
then i realise that ting li is older then me by one day. hahax
so fun wif her.
super close wif her.

hope that will see her durin e next sales.

hmm.

talk abt school.

before school holiday we have our very first common test.

no confident.

hope that can pass all.

heex.

poly life seems to b fun but really busy.

keep on rush project b4 e holiday.

finish e COS n FP module report n finish WP web page.

but was really fun.

lots of thanx to Gina in school.

she help miie alot along e way.

she is smart n playful.

hahax.

shall stop here.

will post pics soon.

buaii ~

2008-05-10T04:25:00.000-07:00

Some pics wif new classmates...

Wif Gina n XiaoQin

Wif JinYu[ Our GoLdfish]

Wif Hazel....Nut

Wif Gladdys

Wif KimLi... didn expect to b same class as her hahax...

hahax.... this is e first time i load photos in to muaii blog...

will b postin more photo in e future...

Sign off [V]ic

2008-05-08T23:54:00.000-07:00

Hihi.

I think my blog are havin spider webs lerx.

Rather busy now days.

Wif school wrk n wrkin things.

School still can handle.

Havin a class wif only 7 girls are weird at first.

But we are rather close with one another.

Litlle update abt things in school.

We been trough our variety show performance.

Hahax. To be surprise our class got e first.

Lecture say that is our class sprit that allow that to happen.

Although e trainin part was like very tired as we keep stayin back,

but was fun after all.

Greates thanx to yew kiang our student buddy.

He is e one who actually bring our class together.

Will post some photo wif frenz...

erm... was goin very well wif dear,

but rather sad this few days as dear was not in town.

Went fer holiday(so good... never bring miie along !!! :’( )

been cryin fer days, but no choice cuz miss dear mahx.

But i realise pro one is chen.

How can she dun meet upi wif his boyfren fer weeks n she still look fine to miie.

Btw... i wanna thanx yu ying she very good.

Accompany miie fer this few days when i’m down.. thanx sisterz.

btw, rather confusin now days.

as i am not sure anymore if what i'm doin right or not...

haix~

what can be done?

No matter how strong i look like i do feel down at times~~~

2008-03-22T00:21:00.000-07:00

hihi. very long never come post lerx.
got a little time so come here post a little.
got to Ngee ann poly,
Information Techenology.
rather happy.
but now got little worry lorx.
cuz is a brand new start of everythin.

then i'm very happy wif everythin i hab now.
really happy.
i'll treasure.

then i goin to quit e current job lerx.
too many things happen.
so is time to move on.
although is a happy wrkin enviroment,
but now things change.
hope it is good for everyoneas well...

2008-01-05T13:32:00.000-08:00

hihi. now in cathay office.

today was a super busy day.

got no mood to wrk,

but i jux continue wrkin.

not feelin really well today,

as got fever n flu lorx...

but like not enough staff,

so i jux wrk.

then we celebrate Edmar's 21st birthday,

he say he is super touch by us.

hahax.

then after that i see that Fadli seems to b very tired,

then i ask him do he need miie to help him wrk till 6am,

at first he say he dun wann to trouble miie,

but i think he really can't take it,

so he decided to ask miie to help him,

although i'm also super tired n feel like dyin,

but i jux take over him.

i thought that by takin over his shift will stop miie thinkin abt u,

but i realise that i'm wrong,

i jux miss u more than anythin else.

hope that time will pass faster so i can see you.

i jux hope that by wrkin will make miie very tired n dun think abt u.

hope this will wrk...

i think i jux miss u too much.

i wonder what i'll do if i'm gona lose u...

today whole day there is somethin which i keep thinkin,

i'm very afraid that this few days of seprate you will regret n leave miie.

as i'm not wif u,

u got more time to think abt things between us.

jux becuz of this stupid thinkin,

it bother miie e whole day.

i dunno what to do.

i'm lost n confuse...

only when i see u then i'll get an answer of what i want...

2008-01-04T22:14:00.000-08:00

hihi.

2day wrkin at 8pm,

so free to come blog moreover bro not at home.

heex.

firstly talk abt wrk,

that day go Level 4 n 9 help out,

i short $24 siax~

i was like ...

dunno how to say,

some more that day L5 popper down then L4 need to pop fer all level.

but luckily i dun need to wash popper norx. =p

talk abt somethin happy,

this few days i was like livin in a place full of happiness,

you are e one who allow miie to hab this feelin,

i no longer wanna go think abt how long will we last,

as i noe that what gona come will come,

all i care is now,

you n miie.

you are e first n onli person that make miie

miss you so much when i dun get to see you ...

dunno why,

i can sense that u r missin miie e way i miss you,

e urge that want to see you.

you are e sweetest person who i ever meet.

u let my little world full of happiness n sweet feelin.

how i wish we can be together all e time,

but if thats e case then i doubt we'll last long.

i'm missin u again.

you feel insecure, so do i,

we jux got too many things that e two of still feel unsafe abt each other.

i dunno how to tell you,

but i dun mind u share to ppl things happen between us,

jux that i got a weird feelin when she come talk to miie abt this.

i'm not angry or what,

e feelin is like i'm sharin u wif her.

heex. sound funny?

dunno how to explain.

mayb i care too much abt u.

which i am afraid that end up you'll get sick n tired of stayin wif miie,

although u say u won't, but i still will think of this.

i like bein spoilt by u,

in front of u i jux look like a little girl,

i also dunno why i act this way.

but can't control.

i'm afraid u'll regret,

but i'll let go if u find some1 suits u more then i do.

really. jux that u dun jux suddenly avoid miie e way corin did to Edmund.

need to stop here, if not i'll b cryin lerx.

Love you dear. muackx.

2008-01-01T17:36:00.000-08:00

hihi.

HappyNewYear yeah ~

ever since my last blog was like mth ago.

flash back abt last year was like time flies.

O-level was like hell fer everyone,

2oO7 was jux like started ytd,

but now we are at 2oO8 lerx.

there is a number of happy things happen in 2oO7,

WgSCO SYF we got GOLD,

international artz festival competition MCO n WGSCO got 3 GOLDS back.

many things happen between friendship,

happy staff n sad things,

but kinda think of them is like jux some stupid things to fight over wif.

everything was fine now,

we still keep in contact n even exchange present durin x'mas.

hope that our friendship will last long... never end...

what over is over,

jux hope that everyone will grow up,

4get all e unhappy things n start a fresh new year.

another happy thing that i'm happy abt is that i go there wrk n get to noe u.

although our start was like kinda joke,

but like what i tell u,

i still feel that everything is not true,

till u give miie e feelin that i'm urs n u r mine.

mayb i jux not confident in myself,

i dun think that i'm e one u'll go on wif, but u did.

i'll think of u every single second i hab, really...

u say that i'm there fer u to spoil,

i'm very happy to hear that,

but at e same time i'm afraid that u'll get sick of spoilin miie,

perhaps is i think too much.

that's what u say abt miie too.

heex. =p

hope u dun think that i really act like a kid when i'm wif u.

for no reason wif u i'll like to that.

hopin that u'll do everythin fer miie.

there is too many things i'll think b4 it happen,

so i'll b like questionin alot of things.

i dun really mind u msg her or meet up wif her,

but jux hope that u'll let miie noe when u meet her.

no matter what, e two of u hab noe each other so long,

i dun wann it to bother u... as long as u r happy,

i'll b very happy too...

i really hab no idea how long we'll b together,

as i'm afraid u jux suddenly realise that i'm not e one u r lookin fer.

but as long as u let miie noe,

i'm willin to let go n let u search fer ur happiness...

sound stupid? hahax. little

but i jux wann u to b who u r...

we did say that we will not fight,

n do really hope we don't...

~3o-DecemBer-2oO7~

2007-12-06T05:04:00.001-08:00

hihi.

today jux came back from Genting.

hahax.

e past few days was very very very fun !!!

1st say abt e result.

guess what ...

WGSCO, MCO & MCO ensemble ...

all we get is ... GOLD !!!

MCO & WGSCO Rox !!!

--o3/12/2oO7 --

i meet rui at o53o to go to school,

but i overslept.

so when Rui call then i wake up.

then we go school,

then rui say mdm Ang say dun bring Zhong Ying Sheng,

cuz no place to put.

but after some talk wif her then we bring Zhong Sheng to Genting.

but guess what time we left school?

if not wrong is abt 8am.

then we use Tuas to cross instead of woodlands causeway.

then e bus is like super slow.

we reach genting at abt 5pm plus almost 6pm.

e bus stop many times, as bus driver say e engine is too hot need to let it cool down.

then on e way up e mountain of genting,

e bus move really slow,

even if u cycle, it will b faster then e bus.

on e bus we watch 2 movie,

we watch die hard n Spiderman.

i was in e same room as Juan,

then Stella n rui,

then at night,

we go ask e girls who is jux next door to us in e hotel if they can change wif rui n Stella,

all agree, n i went to ask Ms Thia,

firstly she sound like she agree,

but end up when i talk to her,

she object. then she tell mdm Ang say that she dun feel that we are there fer e competition,

more like we are there to play.

I think she feel that band is more discipline,

she like them more bahx.

but eventually,

we prove her wrong.

although we are playful,

but we are 100% serious abt e competition,

jux that not as serious as fer SYF. =p

--o4/12/2oO7--

Ms thia gave a mornin call at 7am,

at 8am we have our breakfast at First World Hotel Cafe,

( fer e few days, all we eat is First world Hotel cafe )

after that we got a little free time,

but 2 of our member went missin,

end up everyone need to be in e room fer head count.

then we practice in room lorx.

call Mel n Leong cum to our room to practice 2gether.

actually is i want to practice <>

we also did practice <> fer Wgsco,

but i spend most of e time at Jasmine,

cuz i haven memorise scores.

after that we went to watch band competition,

then go back room practice again.

then is preparation fer our competition,

first is rehearsal, then very soon is actual.

when WGSCO actual one finish,

we run to change costume fer MCO,

really is run. even Mdm Ang also help us alot.

help us take costume thi sn that.

Thank You !!!

when everything finish,

MCO take group photo then i go back room,

Rui Juan n stalla waited fer miie in e room then we went to eat MARRYBROWN.

lights off is at 12am,

but at 12am, we are still outside takin photo.

then we saw ms Lam n Ms Lim,

both of them are out there to catch ppl to go back to our room.

--05/12/2oO7--

wake up at 7am,

breakfast at 8am then go watch MCO pluck string competition,

then a little free time then we go lunch,

after lunch, alittle free time,

the go fer workshop,

when workshop finish,

we went fer dinner.

after dinner, go room pack instrument then is free time again.

we stay at Stella their room to play poker card.

then we go watch Band friendship concert.

miss a little part of it.

then we do reflection of what happen this few days.

after refection shd b free time,

but Hui Na not feelin well,

so we take care of her,

shd b abt 4hrs of free time,

we left abt 2 hrs.

we went fer bowlin, actually wanna continue fer pool,

but it is close fer e day lerx.

then we go buy fries then go back room wait fer lights off.

at e same time pack fer today's' departure.

will up load pics soon, when i have e time...

~buaii buaii~

2007-12-01T22:54:00.000-08:00

hihi.
tmr going to MalaYsia fer competition lerx.
hahax.
haven memorise MCO derx song norx,
but fer sure i'll b able to make it.
must say thank you to teng leong,
he help miie to bring Gao sheng to genting,
when i actaully ask him to lend miie.
Thank You !!!
jux pack my things fer tmr trip,
realise that e bag actually very heavy.
got two costume nee dto bring,
one fer MCO, e other fer WGSCO.
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ytd is a tiring day fer miie,
as MCO say must reach at 8.15am,
so ask Khim to call miie at 7am,
but jux too tired then lie in bed till o715.
when left home,
i 4get to bring my phone,
so walk back home to get it.
then went to meet khim,
we take cab to MSL,
wif Li Juan also.
when reach,
we get our new MCO t-shirt,
got our name on it !!!
n is Chinese name,
hahax,
e 1st n only T-shirt i hab wif my chinese name.
Melvin yeo his chinese name,
yang jiang long,
but e wording drop,
e long no longer is long norx.
then we went fer sectional,
at least i'm gettin hands on fer MCO song.
finally...
then WGSCO ytd got e lotus light performance,
i didn go,
cuz need to go wrk.
b4 that actually wanna go mummy there to eat derx,
but realise they are too busy,
therefore didn eat then go lerx.
jux go help help lorx.
then go to wrk.
ytdbig crowd,
very tired norx.
hahax.. reach home ard 2am.

anyway, gotto stop,
need to go out lerx.
buy things fer tmr trip.
buaii...

2007-11-28T21:45:00.000-08:00

hihi.

got a little time so jux come up n post

somethin which happen this few days.

first of all

will be somethin which let miie feel very hurtful fer this few days.

tues i went back to wgsco [ finally got e time to go ]

fer combine fer next week competition.

i do agree that cannot becuz of miie one person

let e whole CO effort go to drain,

but why did Mr Low use that type of words?

( i dunno how desperate you are going fer $$$,

but since you wanna take part in this competition,

you should not drag e CO down)

DESPERATE???

you dunno anything n say this type of things !!!

do you noe how hurtful this words are?

is i'm able to sit down at home do nothin, i would like to.

can yo imagine your mother when u takin your O-Level,

she tell you that after your paper you beta go out n look fer a job yourself n support yourself.

u will never understand. so when you noe nothin,

can u please dun say out those words?

is very hurtful.

i use to think you are different from other teachers,

conductor, you will understand us,

but as you have a beta position in yuor job,

you seems to lost e communication wif us.

really. this is how i feel.

even if CO ppl see this i will still wanna say.

i'm jux sick n tired of e things i've been doin,

thinkin that going CO i'll feel beta, but your words spoilt everything.

on my part,

i didn have a good time management is muaii fault,

but i'm tryin my best to.

you jux dun understand. you jux dun.

it let miie feel tht CO is no longer a place where i belong to.

i'll only belong to there when u need miie.

truly this is how i feel.

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e 2nd thing happen ytd.

this is e 1st time i noe him so long i see him drop tears,

never i see him like that b4,

but there is nthin i can do.

i feel so useless,

as a fren of his i can do nthin.

i can jux do all e thing i can in my position.

no matter what i hear i see i noe,

i hab to pretend i noe nthin.

ytd actually wanna stay n have a good chat wif him,

but i think becuz he see got ppl waitin fer miie therefore he ask miie to go home.

but till today i jux can't contact him.

wonder how is he now.

is everything okay?

hopefully.

now what i can do is to wait fer him to call miie.

nthin else can b done...

need to stop here go CO lerx.. buaii~~~

2007-11-19T23:48:00.000-08:00

hihi.

very long never come blog lerx.

O-level has ended weeks ago,

jux that i dun hab e time to come post.

hahax.

after o-level i hab been busy workin.

wrk where?

e same old place.

e first day when i go back was very nervous actually,

as most of e ppl that i noe hab left e job.

e whole name list was abt 24 ppl,

less then 10 i noe them.

anyway, this time go back lots of things hab change,

not onli e wrkin collague change,

even manager most of them are new ones.

haix. feel rather sad.

come to think of that little pay i hab,

but there is so many things we staff need to do,

i jux feel that is not worth wrkin,

but wrkin there is fun,

as most of e time we are enjoyin ourself.

jux that e higher level ppl got very high expactation of us wif that little pay.

although e pay compare to fastfood are better,

but jux that as a entertaiment line,

is jux a little too little.

got to noe many new ppl,

have lots of fun wif them,

but mayb e trainin they undergo n what i have been train is different,

sometimes feel that they are jux too easy goin wif what they need to do.

but all i can do is to try to use a better way to tell them what shd b done n what not.

as i jux go back,n all of us r gettin e same pay,

i dun find it that i need to use a tone of a sinor staff to talk to them.

and everyone is abt the same age, so we shd treat everyone as fren.

but sometimes i'll jux happen to 4get n go over that line.hahax. sorry.

now talk abt e things happen when wrkin.

wonder what are we Singaporean are thinkin,

jux that u come n spend money in our comany then u can use that irritatin way to talk to us?

that day when i doin boxoffice there was this F**Kin customer

wanted to watch Lust caustion,

but jux too bad when he come e tix are already sold out.

he jux does not seems to beleve miie,

use that super idoit tone to ask miie am i sure not even a single sit left?

ofcuz there is no more sit lahx,

then think what i purposely dun wanna sell u the tix?

STUPID.

moreover he ask'why is tmr tix more expensieve?

i'm not going to spend a single cent more to watch e movie when i can get at a cheaper price' WHAT derx. then u dun watch lahx. i got force u arx?

then when he purchase a tix fer e ytd (i meet this customer last week)

movie, e way he stand let miie feel that if i can give him a slap i'll b more then happy.

he place his card there w/o tellin miie,

as if i can see it like that when i ask him fer payment, he jux say'is ther, you can't see izzit?'

ya i jux can't see.

cannot arx. not happy go complain miie lahx.

think you got money watch movie u big arx?

i also got money watch movie.

jux a $0.50 diff in price u also cannot.

still wanna act big. *puke*

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talk abt somethin fun.

miie n shihui that day go cyclin,

but e two of us jux too unlucky,

when we reach there n rent fer e bike,

it start to rain,

so we go to a phone booth to wait fer rain stop,

watsed fer abt 30-45mins.

then after that we cycle, then go eat blahx blahx blahx...

after that we find that is still early,

so decided that we can go changi airport walk walk lorx.

who noes we took e wrong side of e bus,

e bus ent orchard tour one round then go back east coast.

end up when it turn back to east coast,

we get down n go home.

waste 1hr fer nthin. haix.

ytd go wrk see my wrkin schedule,

rather angry,

i already sent 2days off,

end up i got 4days off,

one whole week i onli got to wrk 3days.

idoit. *angry*

after that i come yto think of that i dun care lerx.

put miie off lorx,

if u need ppl to wrk dun come find miie,

i have enough of it.

this is only thing that didn change even i go break fer so long.

stop here lerx. write super long nehx. hahax.

buaii buaii~

2007-10-29T02:13:00.000-07:00

hihi, today is rather free.

jux finish English & Maths paper 1.

anyway, i'm not here to talk abt the papaers,

but something that really make miie almost breakdown.

hahax. can anyone explin to miie what is 'e chinese ppl does not want to mix wif her'?

hahax. how i wish i hab e answer to it.

haix. why is that so?

i din mean to drift apart,

but they say somethin like i treat MZ beta then other?

is jux that you guys noe that u need to study,

but she more playful,

so i'll ask abt her whenever she didn come for extra class.

if i really treat her beta,

whenever u ask mii to help you book place in e library i will have reject it.

but i didn. some even ask miie why i need to help you 'chop' place,

but i find it is okay to b done, as we are friends.

but to you all, am i one of e friend?

all e words will eventually pass to miie in one way or another.

i should learn to let go.

2007-10-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

hihi. very long never come up n blog lerx.

seems like spider web is growin.

anyway, o-level have started fer one week lerx.

overall, none of the paper make miie feel confident.

NONE!

no matter is practical, a-maths,chemistry or today's history~

rather sad, not that i didn put in effort, i did,

but jux some how i seems to noe everything but also noe nothin.

sound confuse? i'm also confuse.

hahax.

theory dun say lerx, i'm not good at it,

but e pratical was really somethin that i wanna kill muaiiself.

e physics practical, how stupid am i draw everythin to one paper ?

haix~ nothin to say abt it. jux bein so stupid.

mayb is jux too nervous.

but luckily e chemistry i got e answer. Zinc Carbonate.

hahax.

however, this week i'm feelin very down.

i realise that friendship is jux like two hands, onli two hands clap,

one effort is not enough. really.

i keep tellin muaiiself not to get bother on by it, but i can't.

i'm tryin muaii best to get to where we are in the past, but everythin was jux not ritex.

i feel that i'm not part of them.

is been 8 weeks, but i dun feel that i belong to the group.

this really hurt miie.

ya, you guys might say that i'm the one who want to join you guys,

but i really wish that things would get better.

i have no other intention.

i treat everyone the same, but what you guys said really hurt miie.

like i treat one better then the others.

i really hope that this five years i'll end off wif good memories, not the sad one,

but. did you guys really think that way?

i dun feel it.

really~

i feel that i'm transparent to you guys.

perhaps, the things happen in past is not somethin you guys can forgive n forget.

mayb i'm not a person that other worth friend of.

mayb~mayb~

i wanted to cry, but i tried not to.

i want to cry out loud.

but these are tears of sadness.

these are not i want from friendship~

a friend is never a coincidence in ur life

they are meant to enter your life to bring you Joys n Laughter

it is to be treasure fer e life time.

2007-10-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

hihi. my last post was so long ago.

think muaii blog going to have spider webssssssss lerx.

last few weeks were busy wif prelim,

e result not to expectation, rather sad abt it.

will continue work hard derx.

school now change our timetable to 3period per subject,

wif 3period, the time seems to be movin faster then before.

still have 19 days to o-level,

scary!!! Must work hard !!! Jia You !!!

this few weeks lots of things happen,

okay, i'll start from school,

school will be abt our class seems to isolate one of e guy lahx,

then think he got emo then decided not to cum school,

but some how his dad came down to school,

then teacher ask we all what happen norx.

haix~dunno what he thinkin,

i was bein isolate b4 what, what so big deal?

jux that he dun dare to face it n run away from it.

what a thing a guy do?

must be brave n face it, n think abt where went wrong,

not run away from it.

from this incidence, i believe that what goes round comes around.

now most important is study, rather then bother abt all this things.

Friends n classmates is not everything in life !!!

Anyway, if there is no need, i will also not go talk to him.

hahax. why??? is a long story.

i will forgive, BUT not forget !!!

now come to personal play time.

ths few weeks play alot,

although most of e time are in school(7am-5 plus)

i still play alot. hahax.

on e 23 Aug, miie meizhen, puay hua n bee khim went to sentosa.

we meet at 08 30 in e mornin. hahax. super early.

then reach there it rain. luckily it didn rain fer long.

when it stop, we went to e beach,

then we play n suntan lorx.

abt 1 plus we leave sentosa, we went Novena fer lunch.

we go eat e Lingo Mango. very nice,

but we waited very long norx. then we eat n chit chat.

on e way back home, khim suggested to go play badminton.

at first i thought she was really crazy.

cuz very tired. but we still go play badminton in e evenin around 6.

suddenly we got very energetic, then play till 8 plus or 9 like that.

super tired. go home bath n i play computer then watch tv n fell asleep.

now days relationship wif daddy was not very good.

haix~ dunno what happen,

feel that whenever i going to talk to him,

i'll jux turn away, n go back to room.

jux dun feel like talkin to him.

i think he must be very sad also. but i really dunno why.

last time we can sit n talk fer hours, now...

hiax~ wonder what can make us back like the past....

you can never slove a problem at e level it was created.

onli when u face it then you will find e solution to that question.

2007-09-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

very long never come up n post lerx.
busy wif school work nehx.
so fast e one week holiday is going to over.

when school reopen is our prelim lerx.
then very fast we will hab to face e o-level.
although most of e thing i hab study lerx but still no confident at all.
very afraid that when having exam i'll go blank.
any way, weeks back i'd got muaii o-level Chinese result.
i'm very proud of muaiiself. i got a A1.
hopefully got more subject got e A1 that i wanted.
that day Leroy came back fer booster section wif us,
he share wif us how we sld study fer our o-level.
now do mind-map is too late lerx.
plus i also dun really like mind-map so can onli do liner notes.

the other thing that I'm happy wif is that i once again feel that i belong to e class again,
although is onli that little, not as in e past, but this really make miie happy. =]

fer those who noe Lollipop[Bang Bang Tang],
now days I'm crazy abt them.
especially after i watch Brown Sugar Macchiato,
all e 6 of them is so cute... n also Hei She Hui Mei Mei. hahax.
must go buy their EP, think after prelim I'll go buy.

yesterday went east coat wif Felicia,sis n her 2 kids.
is a very enjoyable day, but not really fun as we went in e afternoon,
not much thing can b done other then cycling n sit down n chat.
anyway, after e cyclin is too early fer dinner,
hence i suggested to go Changi Airport...
of cause got rejected by e them...
so we jux sit down n chat after that we went fer dinner at e hawker centre,
we eat a lot of thing. fer very long i hab never went out wif sis n we order a full table of food.
this include--sting ray,carrot cake,pohpia,chicken wings,xi harmn satay.
hahax. that was a lot. we full till cannot move. hahax. thanx to sis.
lata Andy joined us. he didn eat, so we went to sis house.
Andy got along very well wif sis 2 kids.
we stayed fer a while n we left as Sylvia need to hab an early nitex.

lata Andy thought of Punggol got a very nice cafe,
but we went there n cannot find that cafe,
jux keep on makin rounds.
so Andy decided to go home wif his empty stomach.
but on e way he say wann go dunno where[i 4get e place name lerx]
eat roti prata. e prata was nice, but we waited fer abt 30 min to 45 min b4 e prata arrive.
omg. that was a long wait. however it worth that waitin nehx.
after this we head fer home.

actually i was not having a very good mood yesterday.
so whole day like abit moody moody derx.
sis got ask miie, but i also dunno why. haix~

anyway got to keep on work hard fer o-level.
cuz there are too many ppl that i does not wish to disappoint.
especially muaiself. i must get into e course i wann. is beta to pay now.
Jia you ! Jia you !

PS:WGS 5N1
we must let e whole school see what we hab. never got look down by them.
n never let Father Chang down.
he next year must walk wif wind !!!

2007-08-04T20:18:00.000-07:00

halo. very long never come blog lerx worx.

again one mth lerx. so fast. still got 2 mths to o-level lerx.

time is very tight.

anyway, last week went fer Adam Khoo programme,

a super fun programme, learn alot from all the trainers.

Thanx Gary e Banana, Leroy e Baddy & Andrea e frog Princess.

Teacher say that e trainers are here to guide us along fer studies,

that's true, u guys come n go, e rest is depend on us what do we want.

even if we are to go fer e programme every year but we are not determine to change,

then nth will gonna change.

Gary said every choice have a consequence,

so choose now, never wait till the result and regret.

Is beta to pay now n play lata or play now n PAY lata???

the choices is up to everyone.

be sure of what you want, noe what are e things you are fighting for.

determine what you want n dun hesitate.

the full 3 days of program is very fun.

Gary was a super funny guy, all e jokes, 'pressure & pleasure' hahax.

he can talk till every min we are all laughin till like mad.

hahax. now even thought of those jokes I'll laugh.

like he come to suddenly thought of why bra advertisement must b a girl who play e role?

why not guy. hahax. then still got e super disgusting women

which no one wanna kiss fer 30 min on e street of orchard road.

abt Leroy, the first sight of him was like he wanna kill all of us.

but turn out he was a super funny guy too.

perhaps is becuz he n Gary both came from boys school,

feel like they can talk everythin out like no one business.

onli if sometime our school teacher walk in then they will tend to stop their craps n act serious.

and Andrea is very poor thing.

first day she was after Gary that super funny guy,

which cause her very difficult to make us laugh. hahax.

some more Gary keep teasin Andrea in front of us.

the last day when Andrea was sittin at e back,

Gary still play e role of her to make us laugh.

poor Andrea, must learn to fight back. dun keep kana bully by Gary n Leroy.

anyway, here i'm to wish everyone who are takin o-level to pass wif flyin colours.

especially WGS 5N1. Lets all smile when we get our result.

Jia you !!! Jia you !!!

Dare to Dream. Fly High n Achieve.

2007-06-29T03:34:00.000-07:00

hihi. so long never come post lerx.

abt 3 mths lerx.

not much to say actually.

talk abt work first bahx.

finally got study break lerx. :P

Sorry to Mars,

i noe u jux take over level 6 is very hard fer u,

but really hope u can understand,

not i dun wanna help,

but many thing, there is once, then it will have twice,

and it wil become endless.

now most important is muaii study,

jux 15 more weeks will b o-level.

mid year result is a disappointment to daddy n mummy.

so i dun want thet to happen again.

hahax. talk abt recent derx thing bahx.

few week back jux went east cost wif sisther they all.

so fun. We meet at 10 am at east cost,

then we hab our breakfast at macdonald.

after that we r havin all sorts of craps when we went cyclinfer 3 hours.

after that we hab our lunch, then brother-in-law called n wanted to join us.

when he came, we went fer roller bladdin fer 2 hours.

it was really tirin fer miie as i was newbie fer bladdin.

there end our day. really very very very tired,

on e train i fell asleep. went home, after shower i went to sleep.

hope that we'll b able to have this outtin again bahx !!

oh ya, almost 4get, shin went to cinie to work lerx.

but too bad i was away fer study break lerx. haix~

but nevermind, we still keep in contact.

Dunno how is he now,

he got some family problem,

think he is very sad norx. n tiring too.

but he keep tellin miie he is fine.

really worry abt him.

but too bad, is very far fer us to meet,

unless i go cinie look fer him.

But really dun wanna go cinie,

now till o-level end i also dun wanna go cinie !!

REASON?

i also dunno...

haix... think i stop here...

hope to come post again soon...

Life onli pass us
once.
Today's moment
becomes tmr's memorries.
Do enjoy every single
moment you have,
no matter good or
bad.
Treasure everythin
around you.
Because e gift of
life is life
ITSELF
!!

2007-04-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

today is saturday... now at grandma house, use computer...

nothin much today, jux finish ''grave sweepin''...

yesterday i went causeway wif chen n ling they all then saw zheng fang n Melvin..

then after that i jux walk around wif e two of them,

as actually i'm very close wif chen's frenz...

so prefer to stay wif zhen fang n melvin...

cuz their movie is at 2155, so we walk then go timezone...

very very long never go timezone lerx,

we go play e basketball...melvin keep losing...

hahax... after that we went banquet to sit n talk,

when they go fer movie i went to look fer felicia,

as she told miie she end work at 2200,

but i wait fer her till i'm turnin to stone...

she onli cum out at 2230 !!!

when meet her then she say go look fer fren, cuz fren joinin us...

she did tell miie at first her fren joinin us, but i didn expect so many...

wanted to jux turn n go back home at first,

but i still choose to stay...

went party world wif Felicia n her friends...

didn thought of that will hab so many of them comin,

end up becum 6 ppl singin...

although dun no who they are but we jux go sing together...

one of e fren jux dun believe that i'm so much younger than him.. hahax...

actually is very fun talkin to them...

we finish singin at around 1am,as e party world onli open till 1am..

then we went 515 to sit n talk lorx...

onli then i know how old they are...

got guys n galz, actually i didn talk much,

but how they talk make miie feel they very funny,

i jux keep laughin n laughin...

abt 2 plus then went home norx...

wanted to watch movie today,

but dunno felicia want not...

nvm, lata call her...

shall stop here...

buaii... take care !!!

friend
is never a coincidence in your life,
they r
meant 2 enter ur life 2 bring u joy n laughter

2007-04-08T02:48:00.000-07:00

So long never post blog lerx.. sorry...

Computer never send fer repair, thats why can't posting. .

Last wednesday jux finish SYF, and we gota waht we want,

and thats our GOLD medal !!! Yesh..

Congrats to MSL too, they've got the GOLD too...

this few days muaii mood is very weird...

btw, the stupid guy that i've last post have gone missin since then...

he has totally broke muaii heart..

now even if he appear in front of miie i'll take it as i dunno him...

but the guy i like now, i've not see him fer 2 weeks..

feel so down...

heard that he already got someone he like, i jux hope that he is happy...

i'm happy enough to see that he is happy.. heex...

sound stupid ritex.. nvm, i always do stupid thing..

anyway, he's going NS soon.. but dunno when...

heard that he haven't recieve letter...

i was still thinkin if i have e courage to ask him...

but i doubt i have...=p

now i should spent more time in studies rathar then this...

anyway, O-level MT is jux around e corner...

is time to study... wish that i can get e result i want n got into e course i want...

still workin in cathay, but i think quittin soon.. cuz need to study mahx...

xuan had got into JC,but e reason she go JC sound funny to miie..

chen n ling got into NP, but different course...

i wanna go NP too, is not becuz of them, is jux that i really wanna go there...

reason??? i also dunno...

very long never see shin, but that day message him, he tell miie he in KL...

but chen told miie he got A stead lerx, felt happy fer him...

2 days ago i message Ms Lim(primary school MT teacher)

she told miie she move house. n no longer teache in si ling or marsiling primary...

end of year got school concert, heard that it is a combine concert fer all arts group..

band's SYF is comin,next tues if i didn remember wrongly...

good luck to all artz group fer their comin SYF!!!

should stop here.. free i'll update nehx... heex..

take care... buaii..

StaY HaPpY aLwaYs

Be HaPpY aLwaYs

Onli when
you know how to
Love yourself
then
others will Love you...

2006-12-05T00:49:00.000-08:00

Jux change muaii blog.

2day off, thought of goin WGSCO,who knows,

no more practice lerx, till last week of December..

haix~

kinda regreat that day didn stay at e class chalet.

I realsie that he can easily change muaii mood nehx..

Lolx.. Such a stupid fool of miie...

Friend say that i'm like a fool everytime waitin fer his reply,

but when waitin fer his reply might b a sad things fer miie,

but e joy n happy when i recieve his message was always so sweet..

I really sound like a fool ritex???

Hahax..

Everytime when cum to relationship I'll becum a fool,

but e sweetnest that i recieve was more then enough even if i really becum a fool.

even if he dun hab e same feelin as i hab, it is still kinda sweet to hab him around,

jux simple sms will make miie so happi..

Awaitin fer our promise to cum true...

Is a HAPPY DAY fer miie!!!

2006-11-30T04:48:00.002-08:00

Promise???

waht promise are actually meant to?
Promise meant to b broken???

we have so much of promise, but every time e promise is been broke off by either one of us...
you hab left e place that we get to know each other, i'm nat sad abt it, but what's make miie sad is all e promise we have are not been done yet...
even small things like watchin movie togathere, this kinda things also cannot b done...

i dun feel like writin anymore... I'M JUX TOOO SAD TO TYPE OUT HOW I FEEL NOW...

i'm jux tooo sick n tired fer all e things that happen, perhaps time can cure everything...

you will never understand how i'm feelin now, cuz u dun seems to care, fer all e while onli i care...
so what i care??? when i care you dun, but when i dun u seems to care... wat e freak is all this???
haix... onli if you were in muaii shoes to think abt it...

PROMISE ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN !!!

Chinese blog-->www.wretch.cc/blog/viki4huirong

2006-11-17T04:54:00.000-08:00

haix... today went to WGSCO performance nehx...
hahax.. overall not bad nahx...
now very tired norx.. cuz yesterday work till 1am,
then today wake up so early...

haix... nowdays mood still not good,
i dunno what is he thinkin abt,
and i also dunno wat i want from him..
i dunno him well, but i feel that i like him alot norx..
he sometimes very good, but there are times we are like strangers,
mayb is becux he very stress durin work or too stress up bahx..

that time when i plan to give up,
he suddenly treat miie very well,
but now it seems that everythin goes back to squre one...

what should i do now,
is there anyway that can stop miie from thinkin abt him?

how i wish i can jux delete away those happi
times when we were togethere .

everytime when i'm alone i hope i can get things clear .
but everytime i was alone, i end up cryin alone .

what should i do???
haix~~

feelin sad and down ...
onli if i hab e courage to ask him what he wants n get to know what i want .
but i'm afraid that things might turn wrong if i'm goin to ask him .

haix~SAD MAN!!!

2006-11-08T21:21:00.000-08:00

so long never use computer lerx nehx...
hahax... now days workin..
first time workin, got abit not use at first.. now still okay..

e ppl there is okay lahx.. funny lorx...
still haven serioursly got scold by manager,
hope dun get scold too lorx..
not like hui ting.. hahax..
dunno how to say her lahx..
she is gone case..
in school like that go work also same patten..

Class chalet i think is confirm lerx..
29/11 awaitin.. should b fun norx...
but someone is not allow in e chalet lorx...
so ke lian...
i think my classmate shuold know is who...

N-level result hab to wait till december...
so long... hope can pass...
if pass N-Level then hab to work hard fer O-Level

**Haix~ i should not hab fall fer him...
Although i didn fall fer him fer long, but i dunno why i fall so deep...
From e start i should hab stop myself...

to Pei hua::
I think she really like him too...
I'll find a time to go ask her...

btw, i now workin at orchard Cathay..
Friends of mine, can drop by to see miie..
hahax...

Those friends who are workin, happy working nehx...

Friends taking O-LeveL, may all pass wif flying colours...

2006-07-31T17:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday go play badminton wif MR Low, Bee Khim, Bee Kiant & Ying Xuan aunty nehx .
that Mr Low very wat norx.. keep on smag, feel like killin him.. LoL...
We play from 5 to 7:3o, ofcux got break lahx, if not today e hand cannot write nehx . ..
When we saw Low we all keep laughin norx, he very funny...
His leg so white hahax.. must ask him go sunten...
After that we go eat mac. that bee kiant very xiao, say everything herself then laugh herself...

Must stop lerx.. hahax... this is muaii chinese blog-->www.wretch.cc/blog/viki4huirong

2006-07-30T22:09:00.000-07:00

Computer still not okay nehx.. haix..
sad sad nehx...

last sunday go watch movie wif bee khim n papa .
watch Nacho,very funny norx .

then last fri go Party Owrld wif Jie n hui ting norx,
Sing till muaii voice almost gone...

Then Sat go McO, finally got time to go norx .
Mr Low that day practice Jiang Jun Ling n Feng Nian Ji,
Jiang Jun Ling still can follow norx, but Feng Nian Ji cannot follow norx...

Somemore that day sectional rite, that teacher didn care abt our group nor.. haix..

must stop here lerx nehx.. have to log off.. Now in school norx..
hahahx... loggin off now..
buaii.. take care..

2006-07-22T23:06:00.000-07:00

this is muaii first posting on english blog.
i got a chinese blog ---> www.wretch.cc/blog/viki4huirong

Yesterday went to watch e school band concert,got abit disappointed.
Not that our CCA is very good, but becux many ppl say that e band improve alot,
but end up not all are well played .
mayb nervous or what norx.

miie yesterday meet BK at 4.10,
but she late norx, let miie miss one bus ...
after that meet heng chong they all at cwp,
then we go buy bubble tea.
after that go shop shop abit,
meet chen they all at 5.3o, got ppl late.

reach confrance hall at 6.40 like that.
then we whole group sit down n chat,
saw nabilah, our primary school fren.
then chat chat norx.

e band concert end around 1o plus .
then e whole grp of us take MRT back too woodlands,
Kian Soon n Anne Koh also came back wif us,
on e MRT kian Soon tok alot lorx.
then keep on quarrel wif anne .
poor anne. After reachin woodlands,
we went to 515 to eat norx, but end up onli eat a little bit of fries.

We sit there chat chat norx.
chat abt how chinese orchestra was like in the past then compare to now.

keep on chatin then reach home at mid-night 1.3o norx.
can see how long-winded we are.

Now at Xuan house,
that chen meet miie at 9.3o then i reach lerx she still at
Marsiling waitin fer MRT to cum sembawang.
Let miie wait so long.
Very long never see Xuan sis, she still very nice worx.

Nothing more to say lerx.
Stop here worx.
Buaii.. Take Care..